Thoughts (and Baby Kracken)

It's another one of those rainy nights in Manila. We get them a lot, and it really doesn't bother me anymore. For the whole 4 years that I have been here, it has only flooded once near where I live.

(Thank heavens for that.)

My apartment is right near the hospital and I mostly spend time in the on-call room anyway. It almost seems like I'm married to my work, but when I'm here, however, I mostly am doing both. Work and play...because everything gets so tedious, and you just want to be close by to what you need to do.

I am having trouble finishing my work and thus I need to get my thoughts out on paper... Writing isn't fast enough for me though. My thoughts are diarrheic, and they are most of the things that I will worry about in the month to come. I am in trouble. So many things to do, and so little time.

I can't bring myself to get started, though.

For some reason, I went to my favorite online source, and googled, "How to get a clearer mind"...

I got a listing of articles on "how to think clearly..." or "how blogging helped me organize my life..." Those kinds of sites. Anyway, there was this interesting one that I clicked and it said that, if one was stuck, one should write down everything in one's mind... and then arrange them later.

These ideas or thoughts should be written down under columns of  "To be done, " "Maybe later", and "delete". So ok, hmm... let's give this a go.

(Take note that this is only an exercise, and not all of what I am going through right now.)

> To be done:
     - the medicolegal reports
     - the protocol
     - organizing my desk
     - fixing my file drawer

> Maybe later
     - the new official blog i'm doing for work
     - the schedule of activities
     - the census (although this should be the one that goes first.)

> Delete
     - The gnawing feeling of fear that's building up in my chest.
     - The suggestion to watch a movie (Rorouni Kenshin) on the 24th (haha.)
     - writing someone a letter...and then sending it by mail.
     - working out and jogging daily.
     - planning for a writing extravaganza
     - sleeping 8 hours every night.

I really actually feel like I've turned into a scatterbrained, frightful bore...

(I'm even boring myself with this entry... I don't have much to do these days, but immerse myself in work. *tears* And of course, I can't talk about my patients. :-))

This will all be over and through in October, and then after that, we'll have to work on something else.

Please pray for me and my coresidents. We will be going through a whole lot of hardship and examinations in the next month. May we all come out victors.

:-)

P.S.

One of my favorite babies now...

That's Baby Kracken, Chamie and Tope's new baby (born September 11th, 2014). She's a darling. :-D

Love,

S.

Basketball fever

Street Ball. Half-court (half-street) type. Ermita, Manila. April 8 2014. Photo by: S.

Lazarus

Most times, I like cereal without the milk, coffee without the fuss, and being at work, without having to actually do work.

Today is one of those days… :-)

After an especially stressful week, I’ve decided to give myself a day’s break (because tomorrow, I’m going to be seeing patients again, and Lord knows we are going to go on and on when that comes around…)

So I did. After taking a shower, I lazed in bed with my favorite criminal minds series and had a bit of fun watching. After a while, I began having guilty feelings for not doing anything. So I’m sitting up now, and doing what best gets me into a good work mode.

(Yes, I’m blogging again. :-))

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A couple of years ago, I closed down my blog because of certain problems with privacy. In the whole time, I felt quite stifled…lost and floundering in the cloistered walls of my mind. ß I’d normally tell myself that one of these days, I was going to open up another new blog and “move on”.

I never did, though. I was blogging in tumblr, and then wordpress…but it never felt as comfortable as I wanted.

Anyway, to make the long story short, I’m back to blogging again.

No fanfare, I suppose. Just a few words to get my blogging habit started.

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It’s been two years…I believe I’ve changed some as a person, but I’d also like to believe my spirit is unbroken.

You’ve been with me for a while  now, and I’ve shared many things.

I learned more about myself too.

Perhaps it is time to do that again.

Love,

S.