Saturday, July 3, 2010


i don't like death.

or thinking about it.


My father sat me down earlier, and told me how it was like when he was taking care of my grandmother before she died. He probably didn't mean it intentionally to address my present confusion, but it was good. Death for everyone is an inevitability, I know, but still I feel that I don't know what to do about it. I've seen death many many times, but I'm afraid I won't know what to do if it happened to somebody I loved.


I finished "The Hurt Locker".


Which makes me ask, why do we do the things we do? Why do we love the things we love?



...doesn't explain the cardiac pitter patter i get when I talk to someone I like. It just defines it, though.



  1. If Boylet Intern ain't gay, you probably meant Homeoteleuton--Not Homo?

  2. When it comes to loved ones, I've learned that death hurts just as much whether it is sudden and unexected or the result of a long illness. Sometimes we do things after a death to honor the deceased. If it makes us feel better, that's good. But the most important thing we can do is cling to and support the living...and make sure the people we love know it.

    It is an inevitability, but I hope it's one you won't have to face for many, many years.

  3. @Doc TK:Homoioteleuton is more about the sounds being repeated in poetry. "Pitter patter" was my attempt. lol. and no,Intern is definitely not "homoioteleuton!". :-)

  4. @Ric: Thanks, I really appreciate that. I just felt like i couldn't deal with it yet, without crying, even if it was inevitable. Either soon, or later, I think it'd still be as scary and as sad.

  5. sorry, got pitterpatter confused with alliteration (or was it aliterattion... ohwell)



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