Tuesday, October 14, 2014

Maybe you don't have to analyze so much...

Tuesday, October 14, 2014
One time I told some boy a dream I had (he was also in it.)

And he said Analyze it.

I think I've been overworked...I want to take a load off and try to think of something else. Some thing that I actually enjoy doing, but I can't...

I'm too wound up, and when I do think of why I am wound up or why I should do something else, I tend to get dizzy and confused... I just handed in a paper, and because I was so tired, with spirit broken and all, I immediately thought to myself, "Oh, this is trash. This is shit. Pure and simple. This will never make it..."

And then I thought about how you should always believe in yourself, and how negative thoughts will perpetuate negative attitudes... so I ended up with another headache. I just want to keep still, alright and not do anything work-related for a while.

(Everyone else is asleep.)

Maybe I should do it too.... But I can't seem to make myself stop and sleep a few winks.

There is too much at stake.

(What do I do, that would be helpful right this very minute?)



Sunday, October 5, 2014

The happy bunch

Sunday, October 5, 2014
Blogging and Supernatural.

Two of my favorite activities when I can't sleep early in the morning...  My screen is actually split in two right now... Supernatural on the left, and my writing on the right....

(I love both Dean and Sam to bits, I could never pick between the two fine specimens.:))

The past few weeks have been mostly about working for the accreditation, with late nights and no coffee... someone has to think up new ways to keep awake. 

(Back story: one of my coresidents snapped the tube off the water dispenser thing, and we haven't had hot water for coffee for the past few days. It was a good for laughs, though, so no one minded very much.)

It was a mad rush to do some stuff...which we should have done earlier in the year, but it had just been too busy for all of us...we had many things that we needed to do during the year itself. Yet, for many of us, we learned the lesson like we should. 

Preparation is (or was) key. 

All went well, thankfully. We had to deal with documentation, and questions on lectures and supervision, but otherwise, at the end of the day, we were able to know the lessons we needed to learn.

The consultant who was assigned to us , after talking about the serious stuff, made a comment about how he loved Dumaguete City so much, and how he was going to settle and retire there. 

(I've been hearing this from so many other people in the past. I think they come to Dumaguete, and fall in love with it. It's home too, and most of the time, I know that I will go back....but for now, I'm having the time of my life here. right here.)

To sum it all up, we can never get back the time we've lost for now having supervision, but for a very nicer note, they noted that we were a happy bunch of residents...

(And in life, and residency, when times can get really tough, that matters a lot.)

Or am I just waxing sentimental? haha.



Saturday, September 13, 2014

Thoughts (and Baby Kracken)

Saturday, September 13, 2014
It's another one of those rainy nights in Manila. We get them a lot, and it really doesn't bother me anymore. For the whole 4 years that I have been here, it has only flooded once near where I live.

(Thank heavens for that.)

My apartment is right near the hospital and I mostly spend time in the on-call room anyway. It almost seems like I'm married to my work, but when I'm here, however, I mostly am doing both. Work and play...because everything gets so tedious, and you just want to be close by to what you need to do.

I am having trouble finishing my work and thus I need to get my thoughts out on paper... Writing isn't fast enough for me though. My thoughts are diarrheic, and they are most of the things that I will worry about in the month to come. I am in trouble. So many things to do, and so little time.

I can't bring myself to get started, though.

For some reason, I went to my favorite online source, and googled, "How to get a clearer mind"...

I got a listing of articles on "how to think clearly..." or "how blogging helped me organize my life..." Those kinds of sites. Anyway, there was this interesting one that I clicked and it said that, if one was stuck, one should write down everything in one's mind... and then arrange them later.

These ideas or thoughts should be written down under columns of  "To be done, " "Maybe later", and "delete". So ok, hmm... let's give this a go.

(Take note that this is only an exercise, and not all of what I am going through right now.)

> To be done:
     - the medicolegal reports
     - the protocol
     - organizing my desk
     - fixing my file drawer

> Maybe later
     - the new official blog i'm doing for work
     - the schedule of activities
     - the census (although this should be the one that goes first.)

> Delete
     - The gnawing feeling of fear that's building up in my chest.
     - The suggestion to watch a movie (Rorouni Kenshin) on the 24th (haha.)
     - writing someone a letter...and then sending it by mail.
     - working out and jogging daily.
     - planning for a writing extravaganza
     - sleeping 8 hours every night.

I really actually feel like I've turned into a scatterbrained, frightful bore...

(I'm even boring myself with this entry... I don't have much to do these days, but immerse myself in work. *tears* And of course, I can't talk about my patients. :-))

This will all be over and through in October, and then after that, we'll have to work on something else.

Please pray for me and my coresidents. We will be going through a whole lot of hardship and examinations in the next month. May we all come out victors.



One of my favorite babies now...

That's Baby Kracken, Chamie and Tope's new baby (born September 11th, 2014). She's a darling. :-D



Saturday, September 6, 2014

Basketball fever

Saturday, September 6, 2014
Street Ball. Half-court (half-street) type. Ermita, Manila. April 8 2014. Photo by: S.


Most times, I like cereal without the milk, coffee without the fuss, and being at work, without having to actually do work.

Today is one of those days… :-)

After an especially stressful week, I’ve decided to give myself a day’s break (because tomorrow, I’m going to be seeing patients again, and Lord knows we are going to go on and on when that comes around…)

So I did. After taking a shower, I lazed in bed with my favorite criminal minds series and had a bit of fun watching. After a while, I began having guilty feelings for not doing anything. So I’m sitting up now, and doing what best gets me into a good work mode.

(Yes, I’m blogging again. :-))

A couple of years ago, I closed down my blog because of certain problems with privacy. In the whole time, I felt quite stifled…lost and floundering in the cloistered walls of my mind. ß I’d normally tell myself that one of these days, I was going to open up another new blog and “move on”.
I never did, though. I was blogging in tumblr, and then wordpress…but it never felt as comfortable as I wanted.

Anyway, to make the long story short, I’m back to blogging again.

No fanfare, I suppose. Just a few words to get my blogging habit started.


It’s been two years…I believe I’ve changed some as a person, but I’d also like to believe my spirit is unbroken.

You’ve been with me for a while  now, and I’ve shared many things.

I learned more about myself too.

Perhaps it is time to do that again.



Sunday, November 4, 2012


Sunday, November 4, 2012

I've decided to take a breather from Blogging, as I felt that my words were being twisted by some people, and misinterpreted... I do not want to mislead anyone into thinking that they were the people I intended this blog for.

The title defines a habit I have...that of putting off doing things until just the very last minute, and in no way is a "hidden message" of any sort. There are no secrets here. None, only semi-secrets that I do not necessarily want the whole world to know about. 

I have nothing to hide...and my words are true for the time I have them written them down...I won't be able to say the same for all the days theretofore.

My life has been a series of events that have led up to this present moment...and I am not sure how things are going to be from now on. I just realized that I have to make every moment and every choice count.

Because before I know it, it will all have ended, and I will only have been full of regret over the things that I did not do well.

Things are going to be tough in the next few days. wish me luck, please...



Thursday, October 4, 2012

Photo: Chamie's "Copper Creations"

Thursday, October 4, 2012
My friend and coresident Chamie makes these cool copper bracelets by hand in her spare time. One morning, she took some of these baubles and had me try it on.

"But my hands are vein-y..." I said, with a dash of arte,  and whining..
"It's fine, 'Tep, you're not vain."

haha... She guessed later, that i meant veins. not the other thing.




Chamie's handmade copper bracelet, and cocktail ring. October 3, 2012. PGH, Manila.



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