Tiptoeing?

March 29, 2009

1:12 AM

A couple of weeks ago, one of my co-interns told me something quite surprising.

“One of the consultants mentioned that she read your blog. They were mentioning it earlier during the meeting…” She shared.

“Omigosh, which one??” I asked, mortified.

“Oh, they were talking about the one you wrote about another consultant, and they understood who you meant.”

I was horrified. I instantly knew which entry she meant. It was the time when I was berated and thought of as arrogant because of certain words I said. (I wasn’t being arrogant at all, in fact, it was all just a big misunderstanding. And, in that blog entry, I did concede that I may have used the wrong words, which I still believe were harmless enough anyway.)

“What did they say?” I asked, almost frantic.

“We didn’t wait to find out…we had already left the room.” She said, and she added that I really couldn’t do anything about it now, since I had posted something online, which meant that it was open for all to see.

In a state of panic, I tried to ring up some friends so they could check out that blog entry in question (I happened to be on duty at the hospital and had no access to an internet connection). I wanted to make sure that I didn’t put in anything that would implicate me (I wasn’t very sure, to be perfectly honest). The first friend I rang wouldn’t pick up…even after three rings. The second did. And he promptly went online to check it out.

Well, to make the long story short…the blog entry was just about me talking about how I felt being cornered. No names were mentioned, no reputations were trashed. (I never do that in my blogs anyway.)

Lessons to be learned?

One friend said that blogging about work was going to get me in trouble if I wasn’t careful. Period. My Ma and I talked about it while I was getting ready for work. She was cool about it, and in the end said that no one  could stop me from voicing out my opinion if I had one.

(Thanks,Ma.:-) )

I never should take my being part of the blogosphere lightly, I know. Whatever I write in here should be the product of foresight. I know I talk about this being an avenue for my personal catharses, but really, I’m not just some angsty teen (no offense meant) who doesn’t think twice before posting about little life events.

I think before I write too, you know.

I don’t mean any disrespect, much less arrogance for my part, and if it matters, I don’t write because I dislike a person. I write because I want to share how something makes me feel.

The things I write about are my opinions at a certain point in time and are as dynamic as the hours and days I spend in life.  There are precious few ways for one to leave a mark, and I’m choosing this one as mine.

Maybe I don’t have to explain myself, because since I have been bold enough to write about certain [sensitive] things, I have to be bold enough to stand by the consequences of writing such things…

A “Repeat Rotation” won’t be justified, though.

Haha. (Nervous laugh).