Monday, January 12, 2009

Close Call

It was 2AM two days ago when my father and mum came into my room and told me the news.

"Your Inse had an aneurysm. She just collapsed, and now she's in the hospital in a coma."

I blinked my eyes in disbelief, and partly because it was 2 in the morning and I wasn't even fully awake yet. I remember having tried to explain to them what a burst aneurysm was, and what to expect, then promptly rolling over to the other side, and going back to sleep.

In the morning when I asked, i found out that yes, it was indeed true, and that things were really bad. My aunt had just undergone minimally invasive surgery but was still not conscious, nor responding to pain stimuli (which was, a bad sign). I cried in the car on the drive to work. "Wipe your eyes, it's going to be ok," my father said.

Maybe it was because of the fact that I never really lost anyone before, because I simply couldn't imagine what life without that particular special person would be like, and i was struck with such a sense of sadness so strong it made me weak. Death, or even the concept of it, is such a hard thing to deal with.

My work as an intern affords me the privilege of seeing and dealing life and death matters that most people would not regularly see, but you never really know how it feels like until it's a loved one of yours that's involved. It's scary.


My aunt is a strong, fearless, but warm and generous woman who has worked her way from the simple life in a small barrio in the province to the fast-paced cosmopolitan in California. I am especially proud of her, and I look up to her. We're pretty close too, and she had been a role model for me for as long as I can remember.

Losing her seemed unthinkable, and death was not something i could accept quite so easily.


She's recovering now, they said.opens her eyes and tries to respond, even trying to pull out her tubes. (She is quite feisty..:-) But that is always a good thing, of course.) Her doctors there think it's a miracle, and her nurses are very happy about it.

I do hope this good course will go on.

~ S.

1 comment:

  1. i feel your pain. naranasan ko din yan last year. hope your aunt fully recovers.



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